Trust

As I laid in my bed last night tossing and turning in a sweat, unable to fall asleep due to this new cold brewing inside me and attacking my white blood cells, I threw in an old Desperate Housewives DVD that I must have seen at least a dozen times in hopes that it would help my eyes find the back of my eye lids. Like many of my assumptions, this one also proved to be inaccurate. I found a way to find some sort of depth in this particular episode of Desperate Housewives. In this particular episode, the housewives's trust is tested in one way or another. Without going into too much detail, Gabriel is forced to trust Carlos as he was sent to jail for a crime he did not do, Lynette has to trust a new nannie with her children and Susan's daughter has to trust that her mom knows what's best for her.

In my drossy state of exhaustion, I started thinking about trust and how in real life it can be one of the hardest emotions to give someone else. But we are forced to make this difficult decision on a daily basis rather if it's trusting that you will get a pay check this Friday or trusting other drivers as you make a trip to the bank on slippery snowy roads. Obviously there are people who are more trusting than others and people who give out their trust more often than others. My brother is a great example of someone who trusts without reason. In some cases, this is called nieve and it often times gets him into trouble. Cole believes that everyone is made up of good instead of evil and will believe what you tell him is the truth. How him and I came from the same egg is beyond my understanding. I am on the complete opposite side of the spectrum. Maybe I have just lived more and seen more evil but I have been tricked too many times with my trust to the point that I am not even sure I could trust anyone. I don't want to live life this way and sometimes I wish I could be more like Cole. If only I could find the goodness in everyone and believe that no one could hurt you but that is not true at all. With trust comes pain and hurt that the person we once trusted did not live up to our expectations.

I find my brother living a very simple and happy life. He always has a smile on his face and rarely worries about his future, or anything for that matter. I almost think that this would be a better way to live. Not worry about anything and just let life happen. Give out our trust more freely but with some provisions and then learn from the outcomes. People do wrong, that's life, but forgiveness is a virtue!

At the end of the episode, all of the housewives learned to let go of their fears that held them back and were finally able to trust. Who would have thought something so profound could come out of such a superficial drama t.v. show? So maybe we all shouldn't have my mentality nor my brothers but somewhere in the middle lies a fearless and more optimistic outlook on life.  That is where we should all be!

"Love all, trust few and do wrong to none," Shakespeare