Trust

As I laid in my bed last night tossing and turning in a sweat, unable to fall asleep due to this new cold brewing inside me and attacking my white blood cells, I threw in an old Desperate Housewives DVD that I must have seen at least a dozen times in hopes that it would help my eyes find the back of my eye lids. Like many of my assumptions, this one also proved to be inaccurate. I found a way to find some sort of depth in this particular episode of Desperate Housewives. In this particular episode, the housewives's trust is tested in one way or another. Without going into too much detail, Gabriel is forced to trust Carlos as he was sent to jail for a crime he did not do, Lynette has to trust a new nannie with her children and Susan's daughter has to trust that her mom knows what's best for her.

In my drossy state of exhaustion, I started thinking about trust and how in real life it can be one of the hardest emotions to give someone else. But we are forced to make this difficult decision on a daily basis rather if it's trusting that you will get a pay check this Friday or trusting other drivers as you make a trip to the bank on slippery snowy roads. Obviously there are people who are more trusting than others and people who give out their trust more often than others. My brother is a great example of someone who trusts without reason. In some cases, this is called nieve and it often times gets him into trouble. Cole believes that everyone is made up of good instead of evil and will believe what you tell him is the truth. How him and I came from the same egg is beyond my understanding. I am on the complete opposite side of the spectrum. Maybe I have just lived more and seen more evil but I have been tricked too many times with my trust to the point that I am not even sure I could trust anyone. I don't want to live life this way and sometimes I wish I could be more like Cole. If only I could find the goodness in everyone and believe that no one could hurt you but that is not true at all. With trust comes pain and hurt that the person we once trusted did not live up to our expectations.

I find my brother living a very simple and happy life. He always has a smile on his face and rarely worries about his future, or anything for that matter. I almost think that this would be a better way to live. Not worry about anything and just let life happen. Give out our trust more freely but with some provisions and then learn from the outcomes. People do wrong, that's life, but forgiveness is a virtue!

At the end of the episode, all of the housewives learned to let go of their fears that held them back and were finally able to trust. Who would have thought something so profound could come out of such a superficial drama t.v. show? So maybe we all shouldn't have my mentality nor my brothers but somewhere in the middle lies a fearless and more optimistic outlook on life.  That is where we should all be!

"Love all, trust few and do wrong to none," Shakespeare 

Phony, Fake, Bogus!

Biggest Pet Peeve #2: Fake people!

I never understood why or how people could be so fake? I guess I just don't understand the purpose. I am not talking about bleach hair, acrylic nails, spray tan kind of fake but those girls who will be nice to your face and the minute you walk away talk about how much they really hate your outfit or think your skirt is out dated (infamous Mean Girls scene). I have always been one to say exactly how I feel and I have never put on a show just to impress anyone so maybe I just don't understand why people feel they have to 'fake' it. I have 2 great examples of this I experienced this weekend:

1. At the restaurant I fill in sometimes on the weekends I was catching up with an old friend and of course getting all the scoop that I had missed. She blatantly described her feelings towards another employee and why she felt the way she did. To me, she seemed unhappy with this other person but when she showed up to work they greeted one another with a fake smile and an even faker hello. They proceeded into conversation and throughout the night were very friendly towards one another. This is a normal occurrence in the restaurant business, especially when we have to slap on a phony grin to our customers who are really getting on our nerves. But it also happens amongst employees, as I am sure this goes for every job! But is it because we are afraid of confrontation at our place of employment or is it just our natural instinct to cover up how we really feel about someone? Next time someone is nice to your face, think twice about what they might be saying behind your back because chances are it's not the same thing they are saying straight to your face!

2. Another type of fake-ness that girls tend to exercise is their passion for sports!! You will rarely find a guy who admits that he was watching the season finale of Desperate Housewives last night but I guarantee that every girl is pretending they watching the Giants crush the Falcons in an attempt to impress the men around them. As I watch my girlfriends jump from boyfriend to boyfriend I notice how their hobbies and activities change according to who they date. I have observed as girls change from Buffalo Bills fans to Cowboy fans and switch from going to the salon to going to the gym according to what their new found love is more in to. I have also noticed lately that there seems to be more women now interested in watching football than ever before, are they (we, since I guess I have to include myself in this) doing it to please our men or have our personalities really evolved to be more athletically inclined? It is not my place to say which way is true or not because I do not know everyone's angle on the situation and I am not one to speak of something I am not sure about. But I can at least say for myself, 1 woman out of 157.2 million women living in the U.S. that I have and will always remain a Giants fan. I suppose it all began by pleasing a man, my father, and I had no other choice but to be a NY Giants fan. Regardless, the Giants will never lose my loyalty no matter what man I date . But for the rest of you out there, how many of you can honestly say you would enjoy watching football even if your boyfriend/husband was not around? How many of you can say that even if the new episode of the Jersey Shore was on at the same time as your football team you would only flip on commercials to see what drama the Situation has stirring up?